Can't Sleep

It is closing in on 1am and I can't sleep anymore.  My heart aches.  Just about the time I posted the last blog thinking we were out of the water, someone posted on the discussion forum that yes, our Korean agency will be affected by the delay.  Just when we thought we were days away from traveling, it is looks like we are still months away.  It sounds like the Korean Ministry just stopped processing exit visas and passports.  No one understands why, but they have just stopped.  There are rumors of them starting back up at the end of July, but we don't know.  Jae's paperwork, along with the rest of the current batch, were within days of leaving the Ministry and moving on to the US Embassy for entrance visa, and now nothing?  Seriously?  Just stopped? 

I am in love with the most adorable 15 month old boy.  I have never met him but I carry pictures of him everywhere and talk about him to everyone I know.  He is the one I carry around in my precious heart shaped locket.  I dream about playing with him, taking him to the zoo, going on picnics, playing at the pool, watching him get his face licked off by our dog, but now just getting him home seems like a dream.  It might appear that I am being a little over dramatic, but my heart is broken.  I can't tell you what it feels like to be thinking, "Yep, any day now" and then all of the sudden it turns back into "Nope, at least another month, maybe two."  Paul and I miss Jae.  We want him here with us.  We have been waiting for so long to grow our family and we are at the point where we can't wait anymore.  Stealing a line from When Harry Met Sally, "...you want the rest of your life to start right now."

As soon as we hear anything official, I will update the blog.  In the meantime, we could really use some prayers. 

Love,
Jae's Mom